I’ll admit it. I’ve been badly burned, used and hurt. I’m taking the time to figure things out and rebuild a normal existence. It’s hard to manage drastic change, but when something so non-copacetic (to put it lightly) happens, you take a step back to reevaluate the situation. And that is exactly where I am at right now.

On my trek of self-discovery, I have carefully evaluated my behaviors, my thought processes and my goals. I have even reflected on the food I eat. One of the major life factors that I’ve come across is friendship. Many of my so-called “friends” are no friends at all. Friends should have something in common aside from drinking.

Life after college brings many changes. One of those changes is not the sheer presence of alcohol. It is the ability of alcohol to make people feel a closeness that leads to friendship.

I no longer feel any closeness to friends I once held in my inner circle. I’ve cared much more than they ever cared about me for far too long. I feel like I have nothing in common these people called my “friends.” Yes, there is some history there, but we don’t look at the world the same way. I’ve evolved beyond the college lifestyle of going out on weeknights and rolling in while most people are battling the morning rush hour traffic.

So…

My current situation has inspired me. I’ve forced myself to really think about what I want out of all of it. I’ve started making some alterations right away. I have concentrated on doing what I want. I have no problem exploring the world by my self, and if I come across valid friendship along the way, that’s fantastic.

In the meantime, I’m making remarkable headway toward doing things that I want to accomplish. After losing all my hobbies in college, I have taken up rock climbing, which I always enjoyed at camp. Also I intend to start painting again with all the great light in my new apartment. I kind of have to do the painting thing as I’ve already confirmed to help out with some Christmas gifts for the family.

Cheers,

G

Photo Credit: Nad Renrel